hit the 2-0-0

i wanna write in the middle of the night,
i wanna drink and get drunk, oh it feel so right
I wanna jump, hump and bump

i wanna laugh, i want to laugh.
Coz i know and believe i haven't taken overdosed but had enough.

I've had this crazy little feeling,
of being old, but so young at heart.

I wanna fall in love again and again.
and again. I want to be loved.

I am not angry, not anymore.
Not dwelling in my painful past.
Not soaked in my disaster, lonesome shore.

Not controlled by my self defined limitation.
Not even in others crazy expectation.

I am happy. I am willing to satisfy my life.
Ready or not here I am I stand to fight.
Rushing I am not. I just want to be on the right path.

Wait for me. I'm on the move. I'll hit that hundred and fifty
Or 2 -0-0.
I'm not speeding. I am just boosting my engine.

I will let loose, let go of this angst.
Since. its like a Nitro, injected to run these race.
But. I am determine to win this phase.

Just wait for me. Oh Lord Be with me.

Worry Not

Feb 18 '09

Just when you know you wanted to handle things plain and simple,
the situation and people correlates around you seems complicate everything..
while you sought to make others happy then abruptly you hurt them maybe involuntary
but still you’ve created pain.

Don’t worry the bottom line is because you care


Unexpectedly it turns out the other way around.
Unexpectedly you made a mistake.

Don’t worry we’re all not perfect.


Just when you assume you already gave your finest shot
But still not enough
And so you feel worned out, has nothing to give.
Has nothing to prove, a total loser.

Don’t worry, God has a plan

Everything has reason, still try.
And when you anticipated being just real
But afterward you found out it’s a big piece of phony shit.
Feeling intimidated, feeling gibberish.

Worry Not, you’re worthy enough to be needed by others.