clasp

your trembling hand
like vine entwined with mine
never gets old with time

Love Bug

I feel you sub-zero
The look in your eyes like evil pro
When I beg from you
You refused, while I'm in state subdue

it's a little too late
Until I lost my faith
I've got too much to fake
while you're too bitter to take

Every beat, every street
Those memory lanes I missed
Every hit on the back seat
Were my pledge ticket to retreat

My feverish in motion
My heart rate recursion
I QUIT  you, I'll buy you rocket
Erase you, press delete play cricket.

*inspired by mai

hit the 2-0-0

i wanna write in the middle of the night,
i wanna drink and get drunk, oh it feel so right
I wanna jump, hump and bump

i wanna laugh, i want to laugh.
Coz i know and believe i haven't taken overdosed but had enough.

I've had this crazy little feeling,
of being old, but so young at heart.

I wanna fall in love again and again.
and again. I want to be loved.

I am not angry, not anymore.
Not dwelling in my painful past.
Not soaked in my disaster, lonesome shore.

Not controlled by my self defined limitation.
Not even in others crazy expectation.

I am happy. I am willing to satisfy my life.
Ready or not here I am I stand to fight.
Rushing I am not. I just want to be on the right path.

Wait for me. I'm on the move. I'll hit that hundred and fifty
Or 2 -0-0.
I'm not speeding. I am just boosting my engine.

I will let loose, let go of this angst.
Since. its like a Nitro, injected to run these race.
But. I am determine to win this phase.

Just wait for me. Oh Lord Be with me.

Worry Not

Feb 18 '09

Just when you know you wanted to handle things plain and simple,
the situation and people correlates around you seems complicate everything..
while you sought to make others happy then abruptly you hurt them maybe involuntary
but still you’ve created pain.

Don’t worry the bottom line is because you care


Unexpectedly it turns out the other way around.
Unexpectedly you made a mistake.

Don’t worry we’re all not perfect.


Just when you assume you already gave your finest shot
But still not enough
And so you feel worned out, has nothing to give.
Has nothing to prove, a total loser.

Don’t worry, God has a plan

Everything has reason, still try.
And when you anticipated being just real
But afterward you found out it’s a big piece of phony shit.
Feeling intimidated, feeling gibberish.

Worry Not, you’re worthy enough to be needed by others.

Paroxysm

i just want to shout just beneath your ear..

to remind how painful the voice of distress catastrophe
let go of aggravate doom and give the hint of rampant fear
listen to my raging silence cause it demands for your agony!!

and if your ear failed to recognized my curse

i let your sixth sense feel my sentiment
and let your soul satisfied for torture thirst
every drop of my blood will witness for your bereavement

stitches and burns will be my evidence
for my existence will be your grieve
Exult for your luck is in time
but don't so persuaded,ominous karma be retrieved

uncertain

unleashed.reveal my pain.let the darkness cover me.

Staring nowhere
Suddenly
Saw your face just in front of mine
Skeptical. Frozen cold by that stare

Swallowed the smoke, almost choked
Wear a weirdest grin ever
To fool you that it was just nothing.

A warm hello was finally said
Whew, I stammered
Lucky I am, you didn't noticed
I can’t breathe
my minds loosing grip
Lucky I am,but I can't handle this.

We started a conversation
That will end up nowhere but
Silence

My minds lucid
My heartbeats racing
Perfect, I acted normal.

Didn't you notice that, I’m tryin' to be normal
Screwed up
In regret I am now.

april 21 08

faint-hearted

Rain came rushing outside my window

With the wind blowing so slow

Wondering what lies within me

When I buried it inside deeply

I wasn't brave enough to let it go

I'm so scared for my secret hallow

So many reasons

Thousand of question
One by one they crosses inside my mind

That flew me away far behind

Every drop my tears, crying it out loud

but I wasn't brave enough to reveal the sound d
I blew it, spread it in the air

So you can breathe me, 'cause I care

I'm not brave enough to say it with all my might

I wasn't brave enough, i refuse to fight...