Worry Not

Feb 18 '09

Just when you know you wanted to handle things plain and simple,
the situation and people correlates around you seems complicate everything..
while you sought to make others happy then abruptly you hurt them maybe involuntary
but still you’ve created pain.

Don’t worry the bottom line is because you care


Unexpectedly it turns out the other way around.
Unexpectedly you made a mistake.

Don’t worry we’re all not perfect.


Just when you assume you already gave your finest shot
But still not enough
And so you feel worned out, has nothing to give.
Has nothing to prove, a total loser.

Don’t worry, God has a plan

Everything has reason, still try.
And when you anticipated being just real
But afterward you found out it’s a big piece of phony shit.
Feeling intimidated, feeling gibberish.

Worry Not, you’re worthy enough to be needed by others.

Paroxysm

i just want to shout just beneath your ear..

to remind how painful the voice of distress catastrophe
let go of aggravate doom and give the hint of rampant fear
listen to my raging silence cause it demands for your agony!!

and if your ear failed to recognized my curse

i let your sixth sense feel my sentiment
and let your soul satisfied for torture thirst
every drop of my blood will witness for your bereavement

stitches and burns will be my evidence
for my existence will be your grieve
Exult for your luck is in time
but don't so persuaded,ominous karma be retrieved

uncertain

unleashed.reveal my pain.let the darkness cover me.

Staring nowhere
Suddenly
Saw your face just in front of mine
Skeptical. Frozen cold by that stare

Swallowed the smoke, almost choked
Wear a weirdest grin ever
To fool you that it was just nothing.

A warm hello was finally said
Whew, I stammered
Lucky I am, you didn't noticed
I can’t breathe
my minds loosing grip
Lucky I am,but I can't handle this.

We started a conversation
That will end up nowhere but
Silence

My minds lucid
My heartbeats racing
Perfect, I acted normal.

Didn't you notice that, I’m tryin' to be normal
Screwed up
In regret I am now.

april 21 08

faint-hearted

Rain came rushing outside my window

With the wind blowing so slow

Wondering what lies within me

When I buried it inside deeply

I wasn't brave enough to let it go

I'm so scared for my secret hallow

So many reasons

Thousand of question
One by one they crosses inside my mind

That flew me away far behind

Every drop my tears, crying it out loud

but I wasn't brave enough to reveal the sound d
I blew it, spread it in the air

So you can breathe me, 'cause I care

I'm not brave enough to say it with all my might

I wasn't brave enough, i refuse to fight...

I Remember you, Wen

Remember

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

Christina Georgina Rossetti

FADE AWAY

a million or more i thought about you
the years of tears and laughter, things we used to do
are memories that brings out rainy day
you touch my life in very special way

i remember the way we used to talk
we scream, we shout with crazy look
we share everything, secrets and pain
all just in my memory remain

i'm tryin' to live without you
believing i can do something new
hoping to move on a lot easier
fighting against my fears

wishing to hold you once again
the way this hand touch my pen
as tip engraved the sadness
my heart spelled out loneliness

you never said GOODBYE, just fadeway
i wish i could ask you to stay
but i know it wasn't right, too selfish
and i need to let go of this


...a poem for my late bestfriend